Wednesday, August 18, 2010
grit and moxie
i have an OK track record at realizing my small dreams, but when it comes to plucking bigger visions out of the vapor, i'm notorious for fizzling out along the way. this happens because i spend all of my energy in one burst and then lay in the gutter for weeks in lassitude. my self confidence bottoms out. i get frustrated and throw hissy fits. the distraction du jour comes to say hello and spirits me away. those sound like symptoms of some kind of disorder, which i probably have.
nothing that a little doodletherapy can't fix. i charted out the elements of dreaming-doing and found some interesting things. i have the dreams. i can come to the table with spirit and passion. i can be loud. the courage and pride are shy, but with baby steps i think i can coax them out of their shells. the fiery determination is fully invested in my four year old at the moment; still, it's there. but i am short on grit and moxie. way short. i'm convinced they hold the key to it all, but they are fickle bastards in my world, and i need them on a consistent basis to fight the plagues. it is time to put my inner wimp aside, get out there and hustle a steady supply of grit and moxie.
so there it is. my pain and my prescription all in one dual-pronged doodle. a dose of encouragement to my face, and a healthy kick in the butt. and p.s. i don't know how i forgot, but coffee and childcare should be on this list, too.
Posted by aimee