Wednesday, August 18, 2010

grit and moxie

to-live-your-dream

i have an OK track record at realizing my small dreams, but when it comes to plucking bigger visions out of the vapor, i'm notorious for fizzling out along the way. this happens because i spend all of my energy in one burst and then lay in the gutter for weeks in lassitude. my self confidence bottoms out. i get frustrated and throw hissy fits. the distraction du jour comes to say hello and spirits me away. those sound like symptoms of some kind of disorder, which i probably have.

nothing that a little doodletherapy can't fix. i charted out the elements of dreaming-doing and found some interesting things. i have the dreams. i can come to the table with spirit and passion. i can be loud. the courage and pride are shy, but with baby steps i think i can coax them out of their shells. the fiery determination is fully invested in my four year old at the moment; still, it's there. but i am short on grit and moxie. way short. i'm convinced they hold the key to it all, but they are fickle bastards in my world, and i need them on a consistent basis to fight the plagues. it is time to put my inner wimp aside, get out there and hustle a steady supply of grit and moxie.

so there it is. my pain and my prescription all in one dual-pronged doodle. a dose of encouragement to my face, and a healthy kick in the butt. and p.s. i don't know how i forgot, but coffee and childcare should be on this list, too.

42 comments:

**We BLOG ARTISTS** said...

lol...love this...I am fighting with the long list of wants and desires but will have to kick my butt into gear too if I want to accomplish them!
Sorry I haven't visited for a while..
I have a GIVEAWAY on over at my blog Aimee if you have a moment...pop by!
HUGS
Char.x

la ninja said...

fickle bastards in my world too... the bastards.

Inner Toddler said...

it's amazing that your work is hand drawn. amazing. it's so precise! how do you do it. it must be the fiery determination. in my opinion, you have it all. it's TIME that's the fickle bastard...i am crazy about the border on this one girl. loopy about it.

di from di-did-it said...

oh girl, can I identify with you ~ I'm so glad I discovered your blog!

painted fish studio said...

i hear you! i've finally realized i've got to work harder to see my dreams come true and the only way i can do it is to get over my fear of failure, and get over what people may think of me. i don't think i have more self-confidence - i think i've finally learned to just not care. i'm going to jump right in and get dirty!

cath c said...

sounds excedingly familiar. thanks for voicing it.

~Valentina~ said...

This is a perfect timing blog! I was just telling a friend about how much work takes and will take me to reach my dreams, but I'm here doing it!

RW said...

effort.
taking steps.
risking it all.

thanks for this.

Laure Ferlita said...

Sounds like a great recipe, Aimee! I would add to that...

It's all inside each of us—everything we need—for every step of the way, to realizing our current dreams, and the ones that will replace the ones we reach and the ones after that.....

Too often we do not use our minds, our greatest asset (IMO) to overcome the seed of self-doubt that holds us down, back, and from fulfilling our dreams.

aimee said...

laure, right on! beautifully said.

and thanks everyone!

joanne said...

I can sooo relate to this. I over-think, over-analyze, over-everything when it comes to dreaming and planning and thinking. I think it's really only when you let loose your heart to lead, and leave the thoughts behind that you can overcome those little thought gremlins... easier said than done.

Eden said...

No worries Aimee, just do a coffee and Day care sanity doodle next time :D Love this, and never was there more truthful words written :D

Pat said...

Don't let the bastards get you down. Kick some grit and moxie butt. :)

peggyfussell said...

Fickle bastard key holders!!! Grit and moxie can be in short supply over here too. Especially during the end of summer chaos. But I am gearing up for a big push soon.... Thank you for the kick in the butt encouragement doodle. I love it! Best luck with your ventures. Here's to keeping our minds out of the gutter. (or if we happen to meet there then at least let's hope there's strong coffee nearby ;)

cindy said...

oh grit and moxie, your presence requested, permanently! come on over - you'll love this party!

Annie Pazoo said...

Oh, I don't even know where to start with this one, girl! In my mind I'm sending you a huge, ornate key with "moxie" engraved on it. Try it and see if it opens the door :0)

Now, speaking of dreams and looking for the elusive inspiration ....why am I having this same discussion with myself after at LEAST a year of thinking about it? So very afraid to step off the edge...guess I need to be reminded that the world is not flat!

Liv @ Choosing Beauty said...

This one took my breath away. I ADORE IT! And we can ALL relate!

S.E.Minegar said...

grit and moxie. i like that.

Gracia said...

Yep, it takes grit alright. I like that. So very true.

Nicky Linzey said...

How true Aimee, I think it's the same for anyone creative. It seems to me you've got all those things but I'm not sure that anyone has them all of the time. Great post!

rachel awes said...

YES to coffee & childcare!
YES to listening to our needs!
YES to grit & go & grrrr to what gets in the way!
YES to you & your loopty loo
word wisdom!
dream on, dear friend!
xoxox

Tyggereye said...

Yes to coffee and childcare if that was in abundance I'm thinking grit and moxie would be too! :)

lori vliegen said...

do you have any idea how much i needed to hear this today? not only are you a doodler-extraordinaire, you're also psychic? come by any time and peek through my windows and you'll see me throwing those same hissy fits, and searching in the deep dark corners of my room for some grit and moxie. and i agree that time is always the official distractor, but my real problem lies in the fact that my four-year-old is now a twenty-four-year-old. i need to start dreaming about some new excuses..... xoxox, :))
p.s. absolutely fab-u-lous doodle, dear girl!!!

Susan said...

Ugh, Aimee. Well said and it sounds all too familiar. We should have drinks!

aimee said...

oh my god! you're right, i forgot alcohol, too. this list is clearly far from complete. what else did i miss?!

Alexandra Hedberg said...

but your know your dream! So many people don't.

Childcare YES!
Coffee - always and a lot!

●• Thereza said...

but you're spot on there on 'the world we create for ourselves'... great!

Carrie Schmitt said...

I think I have the same syndrome! This was reading my own thoughts. I love your creativity and humor in your writing. Great post!

heather smith jones said...

I'm the same way, good at the little goals but hard to press on with the bigger dreams.
But I don't know, I think you've got plenty of moxie.
Maybe we all should post this doodle in our real world spaces and we'd get more long term dreams realized! :)

Darnita said...

I am loving this post. I needed this to give me a boost in the rear.

daisy janie said...

Big, fat tears rolling down my cheeks. I read and re-read this doodle about 11 times. As you often do, you peeked right into my life and wrote down exactly what I needed to hear. This has been a very hard week (I have yet to figure out why), and I needed a reminder that I DO have these things and I must continue onward and upward with them!!

I also welled up thinking of you thinking of yourself as someone who lacks these qualities - which is so not true! You just need to focus on them and direct your grit & moxie toward your dreams! You are so there - soooo talented - please go, go, go if that's what you want. I would give anything to have your raw talent, intellect and unique perspective on life - you need to share it with the world! We all have uphill battles and things we can coast on... how will you bring them together?

Kolleen said...

Can you send some grit and moxie this girl's direction?!?!?

i could really USE some! i have household with 4 crazaaaaaaay kiddlies!!!!

coffee and alcohol are definites on my list!! ; )

xoxoxo
k

suzanne cabrera said...

All I can say is "I hear ya, sister!"

sowandsew said...

Wonderful stuff!

Ecobatt said...

You always tell it right sister. Get those bastards to sit up straight and listen up, it's time for Aimee to go out an do some serious butt-kicking...with a babysitter in tow, wine of the yummy sort, coffee of the dark rich and dangerous sort, and a whole lot of creative love! You're just a treat to share life with out here in the interweb.

Christine said...

So true.
I believe in you. And send you grit and moxie! (can you do that?? Through the in'ernet? I think y'can...)
:-)

Erin C. said...

This is a great post. I take your words to heart and clearly they resound with all of us.

all things * jane said...

This couldn't have been timed better. Pretty much experienced your entire first paragraph last night. LOVE the encouraging message you wrote!

thisdreamergirl said...

I just got your magnets yesterday... (LOVE THEM!!!) Thank You!! Ahh.. Grit and Moxie..slippery little suckers... just when your amped up on some sort of Natural, Life Affirming Energy kick of sorts... it fizzles... and because out of the corner of your eye something dashes by (DASH!) and you look.. in that shift of focus... is where Grit and Moxie take a vacation..Damn it all to heck! Totally Hear you...

Hey I have an idea... you keep doodling to help yourself and in turn really (really) helps us.. and you tell us what we can do to help you!!! How bout that??? Sounds like a plan to me!!!

Anne-Marie said...

Love this! And agree that to live the life you've always dreamed of definitely takes moxie! I am self-employed and I love love love every moment of it, even the moments that require more than I have to give.

Phoenix Peacock said...

so inspiring. we all need a good kick inthe pants on occasion!

kendalee said...

Oh Aimee, this spoke straight to me. I could do with some large doses of grit and moxie myself right now because you're right, they're the one's that actually make it happen, and big dreams don't come true without them. As always, the fact that you take something so profound and turn it into something so pretty leaves me in awe. Great doodle!