Monday, December 29, 2008

clandestine


my stolen hours aren't spent doing things that most would consider to be spicy or headline-grabbing, but they're important to me all the same. when i get a gift of time that i didn't expect, i like to doodle, read or just disappear into my head for a while. the best stolen hours are guilt-free surprises, like when someone cancels an appointment or a meeting i didn't want to go to in the first place, or when my husband takes our girls out for an hour or two.

i've also taken the moral low ground and swiped those hours myself when necessary. when i was office-chained to seventy hour workweeks, in moments of desperation i would slink up to the roof of my building and gape at the sky, since i was too mind-numbed to do anything else. or in the days when i was catching 6 am flights every monday, i admit that once in a tiny while i had an extra cup of coffee at the airport, writing or dreaming or doodling, and chalked up my delay to issues with baggage claim or car rental. just enough to get my head back on track, focused, and repaired. you know.

whether gifted or stolen, those rare hours are measured bits of gold, and i get a secret thrill out of every second of them.

23 comments:

Cristi said...

hi aimee! i can so relate. my hubby has been off work for the holiday and i have taken every opportunity possible to steal a few hours here and there to create. he's been kind enough to take our boys off as well so that "mommy can have some time to breathe". when i'm creating it feels like the only time i can genuinely "breathe". hope your holiday was wonderful!

Ces said...

Oh Aimee, "taken the moral low ground" how can that be? Any time you spend on yourself is never low. It is because you are selfless and altruistic that you think everyone else deserves your time but not you. Of course I can say this with authority because I feel the same way as you do but I am so much older now and I think it's time I start listening to myself. I think a book, a coffee or two, a doodle, a weekedn spent painting while the laundry is piling up and my children are making peanut butter sandwiches to feed themselves, isn't such a bad idea or thing. Besides, they always invade me and once they even signed a painting of mine with their initials while I was not looking!

Bella Sinclair said...

Amen to that! Unfortunately for me, whenever I do find myself with a stolen hour or two, I get so anxiety ridden over how best to spend it that I practically become paralyzed. Ug, how frustrating is that, to watch your precious gold slipping through your fingers.

I'm glad you got a bit of ME time in. Vacations are not really vacations for mommy, I agree.

INDIGENE said...

Oh never a truer post! It seems as women, that's all we do! Let's not steal the hours, let's take them! :) Wonderful post!

jazzlamb said...

I am amazed by how you encorporate typography so beautifully in eveything...and make it work!

soulbrush said...

oh yes, young mums have to grab time just to 'be'! enjoy it, you deserve it girl!

see you there! said...

Kids long gone but DH retired so when I get the house All To Myself for a few moments that is a clandestine breathing moment for me. Of course I'm sure he feels the same. We do try to make/give space to one another.

Darla

Nina Crittenden said...

It is really amazing how refreshed those moments can make you.... I got a chance to read a new book yesterday and am surprised at how rested I feel today!

daisy janie : scoutie girl said...

I get so giddy about those hours that I envision accomplishing about 20 major tasks in that time...it seems so realistic b/c I'm on such a high from having that precious time. But I am easily distracted and usually don't get 1 done!!!! urgh.

Love the color palette on this one!

painted fish studio said...

i hear ya! yesterday a friend and i had plans for the afternoon, and when she canceled due to illness, i did a little dance and spent the whole afternoon knitting.

i'm so glad you have time to doodle now... i am a bit worried about going back to self-employment. the last time i did it, my creative time dropped to an all-time low and oh how i missed it. but i think it's such a big part of my life now, that i won't be able to push it aside... don't let me! :)

●• Tiny Red said...

stolen or gifted, these hours are surely deserved. always...
:)

Kelly C. said...

oh i just love this and can completely relate to the sentiment. for example, the snow storm we just had offered many opportunities for me to re-think obligations and trade in a few for some time staring at the christmas lights. love that.
and LOVE to you!!!

joanne said...

yes...those moments are so refreshing and renewing...and it is amazing how many times we can go so long without them and then wonder why we feel so weary...no, these aren't the times of moral low ground...rather...it is like a bank account...too many withdrawals with not enough deposits leaves you overdrawn...

remember when you would fly on all those trips?...during the safety lecture at the beginning of the flight the attendants always told you the same thing...put on your own oxygen mask before you try to help anyone else put on theirs...

your artwork is as always so beautiful...your interpretation of "clandestine" so imaginative and meaningful...

Christy said...

We just got home, and I've been spending the last three hours in "me" mode, tidying up all aspects of my world. Yea for clandestine moments! See you soon? Hope so! Happy New Year...

DJ said...

Going to steal some moments, now!
(Thanks...I'll tell hubby it was your idea. :-)
Love & Laughter...

Tracey Miller said...

Great color and typography, and a nice concept as well!

cindy : quaint said...

yes, quiet, thoughtful time is so necessary and on such short supply as we're always connected. lovely post. happy new year!

yoon see said...

Lovely words and illustration that give us the drive to continue our persue on what we love:)
I also agree with you, not just mum but single like me also busy finding the little time to connect to what we love to do.

Annie Pazoo said...

So true, so true. And so smart to "take" a moment whenever you can (love the airport delays - I'm certain to try that one now).

NANCY LEFKO said...

I just love your doodles :)

Vincent Juanes said...

Hi Aimee, another great work. I feel like you, my stolen hours are also scanty... Regards and Happy New Year!!!

heather smith jones said...

I can't imagine you in either of those jobs aimee, at a desk all day or catch the monday morning flights! I'm happy your life isn't that now, aren't you?

Happy new year to you and your sweet girls & husband!

Miss Aimee said...

Happy New Year. I am so glad I found your blog. Fun to read!